That time of the life again !!! Bugs and bugs and bugs

Its the same thing happening all over again.Yes, it is that time of my life when the coding has been over and the module that I prepared is being tested.The same things that happened the time when I created this blog.The same old frustration, the same old bugs, and the same old ignominy.It was that time ( during the ASU project that I first encountered these thoughts...)...and the same old thoughts are recurring over and over again in my mind again.

I know my strengths and I know my weaknesses...yes I am not good at coding that is for sure ,and I am also not good at manipulating things..I know I will not be able to do much for the first thing but I'll have to do something for the second, otherwise the way ahead will be paven with rocks and dust for sure.I tried my best during the UIM Registration Details Coding to minimize the defects and give a defect free module but then it is happening all over again..1 bug comes and along with that, comes a whole crop of bugs...I can not do anything about that ...that last time this thing happened in ASU, I took the decision about preparing for MBA as I thought this was not the right field for me ...but then again... as time flew by, my decision went alongwith the tide of time and whirled itself away from me ...my desire to prepare and go for an MBA weakened as I started getting good work( not in coding but in analysing the requirements, and I proved to be good at it and that is the reason I submerged myself in the very job which seemed to be not so interesting to me ...).I proved myself good in the eyes of my Module Leader and he came under the impression that I was good at everything ...and the worst part started when I willingly took the most crucial sections of the module i.e. the Registration Details Section and the Cascomm Section...and the time since then has been verbally like hell for me...and I did not know that the worst of the worst would come when the System Testing for the same would be
started...I can continue with the story and convert it into a best selling novel and I do not have
the time for that now..I am into my new project ...the Phase 2 Axway Integration...which
I again willingly took...and then again the life seems to be not so easy for me...I wanted to run away from my present, from myself and from the wholw world just a few minutes before but then I calmed down with the help of 2 continuous fags..Now I am thinking what to do ..should I again start preparing for MBA but this is not the right time for it ..or should I sit depressed in fromt of my PC and think nothing ...or should I change my attitude..what has happened has happened ..i can not do a thing about it ...so just sit down and let the things happen by themselves ...The last option seems to be the best ...I am sitting down in from of my PC at office and starting with the next thing that is in my hand...so that atleast nothing goes here...the defects are here to stay ...If I'll not close the, somebody else will ..the defects will be gone..what if I get some low ranking in my next appraisal ...atleast I can not let my life go away...that is the essence.The work will never stop ..the show goes on..At least I have decided, to improve my communication skills and more importantly my presuasion and assertiveness skills ... When I talk about assertiveness, I always thought that I should be able to dominate myself but I have realized that is not the way people are motivated and that is not the way, you can get the work out of people...you have to liten to them and talk to them very politely ( the way Kedar does it is excellent)...and you should be able to manipulate the things so that it all seems clear :)But the thing I believe in is that I have not entered into IT just to code ...I have not entered into IT, just to give the client what he wants...not that is not the reason I have entered into IT ...I have entered into IT because I want to change the way people do business, the way people live, the way people entertain, the whole way people live their lives...

and I know that I will have to be in the system to change the system.